the love parade my stomach and weary legs.

the fat that my stomach consists of makes my eyes water more than once a day. unless you are overweight you have no idea what i am talking about. it is hard to explain the pain that extra pounds add. today i spent most of the day eating shit that should never come close to a person's mouth. i feel disgusting. i feel like a fucking blob.
i want to quit smoking but all that is going to do is make me gain weight. another reason why it is hard for me to quit smoking. (weed, now that is an other story.)
saturday was the loveparade in san francisco. i did somewhere around 5 pills in about 24 hours. i had fun, of course, but am still picking up the pieces of my life in my staggering long amount of free time that i have. i have always had a theory that e is not depressing unless you do not have a job because you have no means of returning to (what we like to call) reality. you remain in a "come down" state for a few days because you have no reason not to...